- YeE LIn - Ms WaTeR-

So happy.
So contented.
So thankful.

Got a bouquet of roses+my favorite sunflower few days ago.
~so sweet~
Thanks dear for your full support.
I truly appreciate it.

I managed to try a different kind of drink last week.
Hmm...
It was quite different.

Although I'd tried it 2 years ago..with my buddy--jasmine(forgotten where already..LoL..),
but...this one...
It was quite different.
I mean..the taste..
Have a look here... (*forgotten the name of it..LoL..*)

Well...just for sharing purposes. ^^

Oh ya...
Of course... when there is great DRINKs..there must be delicious FOOD!




Another thing to share with..
Yup. The flower that I got..
Hmm..

Eventually.
The scariest time is here.
From 18th May ~ 28th May.
The FINAL EXAM week.

I can do it.
Can I do it?
Yea..of course I can.

According to my lecturer, we must have the so call--Spirit of exam!
Only then we manage to "strike" in exam.

Whoa...
spirit...spirit...
Come on spirit...
where is my spirit?!

*searching*

(~_~ )lll

Accidentally saw something on YouTube just now.
Thought of sharing it here.
Hmm..
perhaps it might be kinda useful to those who don't feel happy at this moment?!
Loveee the animation!! Full of colors...and cute! *Thumb Up*
Something to brighten up the day. Especially when in bad mood.
Trust me. ^^

不晓得你是否会读到这篇blog, 但无论如何，还是想写些东西。

今天，我们结束了3个多月的感情。
母亲节，变成了结束你我之间的一天。
原本温馨的一天，终究让我搞砸了。
是我，
是我在你与我之间画上了句点。
对不起！
你很好。你没问题。
全都是因为我个人的问题！

再过几天就是我们在一起的第100天了！
对不起，我想， 没有那个机会一起庆祝了。
对不起。

想在这里再次地向你道谢。
这几个月来的陪伴，让我感到很开心。
你的温柔体贴，我很感动。
谢谢你。
一切都只有谢谢可言。
ありがとうございます。

愿神祝福你前面的道路。
在此，我衷心献上深深的祝福。
愿你，一切顺利，平安，快乐。

Always..
You wrote this to me..
"52101314"
It makes me wonder,
Is that true??
Will it be like what it means??

When I look at the people around me,
Ask them...
Observe them...
I've learn something.
Being involved in a relationship can be a happy "thingy";
At the same time,
It may leads you towards the pathway where you can neither find happiness nor satisfaction.

Frankly speaking.
I'm so confuse right now.
I doubt.
I doubt.
I doubt.
Yet I still can't get the answer.

I was so stunned when I heard you mentioned this.

" Though sometimes I feel frustrated when you stop me from doing XXX, but actually, I'm glad that you are here to control me! Else, I'm afraid that I'll do something unpredictable and return to the bad old me! "

Such a shocking thing to hear this.

I'm controlling somebody?
Does anyone under my control?
Am I actually controlling somebody?
Since when I'd transformed from an ordinary university girl to a monster mistress?
God knows.

I don't wish to control anyone.
Especially you...
Just be who you are.
Okay?
Show the real you to me.
I don't wanna see the fake you.

Dear god,
Does he change because of me, but not because of himself?
Does it mean that, he will become naughty again if I'm not here?
Why? Why? Why?
I don't see your sincerity...
I don't sense your intention...
I'm not forcing you...
But...

Arrghhh...

___(-.-'')___

Swt..

When I look back at my previous blog,
I realize something!
Oh gosh..so many things happen to me lately.
No wonder...I don't feel happy.

But today.
Out of a sudden,
a voice in me urges me to write something happy and good+positive.
Yep.
I found something which made me happy.
well..
My source of happiness.
---FOOD---

___(^O^)___

No more swt.
No more tears.
No more sigh.
Just...

Yummy-Licious Food!
Haha~~

~Firstly---> HOME COOKED MEAL.

~After that---> KOREAN FOOD

很多时候，人家常常会祝我或告诉我，要快乐哦~希望你有个快乐的一天... ...
听起这些话，我觉得世人好虚伪，好做作。
因为，大家压根儿都不觉得快乐。
但，往往大家都在 祝彼此快乐。
最好的例子就是我--郑依琳。

我其实很不快乐。对，一点都不快乐。

不能做自己喜欢的事，
不能和自己喜欢的人一起，
不能想自己喜欢想的事情，
不能吃自己喜欢吃的食物，
不能读自己喜欢读的课程，
不能去自己喜欢去的地方，
不能看自己喜欢看的东西，

瞧... ...
这么多的不能，
这也只是一部分了，
真正要写，
三天三夜都写不完。

仔细一看，原来总结就是，
“不能做自己喜欢的事呀！”

总是觉得自己仿佛活在别人的影子下，
偶尔也觉得自己像被牵着鼻子走，
没有了自我，
没有了尊严，
没有了最基本的，自己的想法。

不能去读我最喜欢的音乐，
我觉得，就是我一生中最大的遗憾了。

为什么父母亲都不了解我？
试问，有谁还会了解我？
妈妈爸爸，我居然已经乖乖听话去读你们要我读的科目，而且又乖乖留在马六甲，
可不可以不要再觉得那是理所当然了？
可不可以顾虑一下我的感受？
骂人，有时候也是需要听一听别人的感受，别人的理由。
不要老是认为那是理所当然的，好吗？
我自认不能算是好女儿，好孩子。
但，我也不算坏，毕竟，我懂得去忍，去接受，去配合你们，
可是，我这么做，并没有得到好的结果时，
我好不快乐，好辛苦... ...

我当然会羡慕别人，
能够去体会不一样的生活。
就算是一个月，我都满足了。
可惜... ...

看着蔚蓝的天空，我想啊想，
对啊，人嘛，就是这样的。
很多时候，我们都没有选择。

对于我来说，
只要别人开心，别人满意，
我再不喜欢，都会想去成全别人。
但是，这慢慢地， 已成为了我不快乐的泉源。

现在的我，已不再害怕死亡。

活着，就是要快乐。
但，如果没有了快乐，
还有活着的意义吗？

我不是想要结束自己的生命，
我还没这么的不理智。
我只是认为，如果上帝要接我走，
我不会害怕，而会甘心地去。
也许我不会上天堂，
但我觉得地狱就有如人世间这样，
我居然都能活在人世间，
那，地狱，根本就没什么好怕的。

我要快乐，
但，快乐不要我。
所以，我没选择，
唯有选择不快乐。